11 months old

Today in about 23 minutes my son will officially be 11 months old.  I can’t effectively communicate how fast 11 months just happened.  In some ways I feel as though I have always had a child and in others I’m still surprised that the nurses at the hospital actually let me take him home.
So 11 months today I was gigantic and miserable.  On bed rest from having gone into pre term labor three weeks prior.  I was still holding onto the thought that since I had gone into pre-term labor there was no way I was going to carry this baby until March 12th his original due date.  So every day I was hoping that this was the day …

So way back when ….
I was crocheting a blanket that he sleeps with every single night. 
I had set-up his room in an apartment that my husband and I no longer live in
I was attempting to walk my dog every day because I thought that would induce labor
I was too busy to be on bed rest … oh if only I knew what busy was
I had mentally checked out of work eager to be on maternity leave
I was sleeping 5 – 6 hours a night tops …
I played a lot of video games with my husband to pass the time
I couldn’t wait for labor to happen

Now ….
I couldn’t crochet a blanket if I wanted too … sorry second child no blanket for you
I live in an awesome house that my husband totally re-habbed
I never walk my dog
I would kill for bed rest
I would totally mentally check out of work to go on maternity leave again
I still only sleep 5 – 6 hours a night
I’ve only played video games once since he’s been born
I would have waited another week if I had known how much F***ing pain labor caused

But all in all its been a wonderful experience.  My son is healthy, smart, engaging and happy.  He makes me smile just by smiling at me.  His laugh is still the best noise in the world and I long for the days that he was still little enough to let me hold him like the baby I still think he should be.

Happy 11 Months baby …